My helplessness in my word

I have never started the blog to make it competly blank for so many days .. but I am helpless and though lots of thoughts tends to hit the sea-beach of my mind . I am unable to hold them into one and express them .. the hope of revival though seems large but still the dark cloud is lingering with no sign of silver lining .. I have never felt like this before .. it seems as the quarter-century is playing its game and the protagonist is just a serene viewer with hands tied to himself so that he cann't also applaud them .....